Saturday, February 3, 2018

Life: They will never stop until they die

Life: They will never stop until they die: I hate alcoholics, drug addicts, Rapists, Child Molesters. Yes, I hate them! Many  they are sick, make excuses for them. Unless you are, or ...

They will never stop until they die

I hate alcoholics, drug addicts, Rapists, Child Molesters. Yes, I hate them! Many  they are sick, make excuses for them. Unless you are, or have been their victim, you will never understand, the torture. No matter how much you try, you cannot forget. It is a constant reminder. One tries to live,  but these people have destroyed one’s life, one’s peaceful sleep, relationships! They will never stop, unless they are willing, have strong will-power. The only way they stop is when they die! The victims are finally free! Alcoholics and drug addicts make their family drug and/or alcohol dependents. It’s hard to leave these alcoholics/addicts because friends and family don’t believe. They don’t want to get involved, Therefore abandoning the victims.  Many times the family, or spouse think that it will stop, or they are blind o the fact that it’s never going to stop. Then we have those who look for ways to get away, but wherever they go, the doors are closed and they have no choice but to pray for it to end or death! There are also those who give money alcohol or drugs secretly, not thinking or caring about the harm that they are causing. “Oh one more or a little bit won’t hurt.” They say! Not thinking one more can and will kill someone! The are men and women who are good when clean, but very weak. They can fool the best of us.
Many have mental problems, and they rush to drugs or alcohol.
Alcoholics, drug addicts,  child molesters and rapists are terminal people, they  are worse than cancer, Leukemia, and other terminal diseases. Once a person gets these diseases, death is the only way out! They never suffer ever again, the victims are free, the family, spouse and kids are free to live their own lives! That is my believe.
I have been there!

Any  questions? Need to vent, need to chat or write to anyone about this? I will be here to hel you until I make a new website. Feel free to tell me or anyone how you feel!

Friday, July 21, 2017

One more drink won't hurt, Co-dependents

One more drink won't hurt. I Hear that all the time! The last time that my first husband said this, it  didn't only hurt him, it killed him.  My late brother said the same thing,his live busted and he died. So many say the same thing. Their families don't believe,and when the inevitable happens, they have no one to blame but themselves. A person who is taking medicine, who has compulsive behavior, is bi-polar,was a drug addict. has hepatitis C,  cannot drink at all. Especially if they become violent. Siblings have to understand, that making their relative happy, does not mean, that they can give him everything he wants!
Only the person who lives with the alcoholic, knows what is going on.
The alcoholic can be the perfect  husband, person when he is sober but once he mixes alcohol and medicine, the brain had bad reactions, and someone will get hurt.
I will continue on this subject to better inform those who don't yet realize what alcoholics, and/or substance abusers can do. Families become Co-dependents.

MINERVA is lost

Chapter one
                 July 21, 2017, 10:59 AM


I looked in front of me, and I saw a brick wall.  I then looked around, and the wall was around me, enveloping me! For the first time in my life I have felt vulnerable, unable to go anywhere, do anything, think! I looked around, my back began to hurt, a rocking chair appeared and I sat down. I kept looking around, there was nothing but the brick wall, no door, no way to get out. I was not afraid, just could not think! I wanted to scream, but I was too numb to scream! I then realized I was at a zone where I didn’t know what to do, how will I get out of here, when will I get out of here, will I ever get out? Will I find a way out? Is there a way out? I have no feelings! I just want to…… I don’t know what I want…..
This my readers is the beginning of my unknown zone! Keep reading you will find out! Maybe…….

 Chapter 2

Still numb, I close my eyes, trying to find out how I got here! I look around, I’m going to start from the beginning. The wall turns into a screen. I see a young pregnant woman, named Julin,  giving birth at midnight to a beautiful baby girl. Three days later  the baby’s father appeared ordering the young woman to go home with him.
Julin went back to her mother  days later, not wanting to go back to the baby’s father.
 Julin’s mother had planned to send her  to New York City. There was an accident and the baby’s father lost his leg. Julin was obligated to stay with the man, who gave her a hard life.
Year after, the  couple got married, the little girl grew up with her grandmother who had maids and spoiled the little girl.
 The couple had three  more boys and had a normal life, a nice house and also gave the little girl everything that she needed. .
The screen now changed:
The little girls happiness ended when her grandmother  took her to NYC, then was obligated to leave her with her parents in NYC. Living in  a furnished room, and  a life she did not know, the little girl was very sad, especially not living with the grandma whom she adored.
The scenery changed and Julin and Artier moved to an apartment. One night, the little girl was awakened by something moving over her feet, it was a mouse! Artier went to sleep with the little girl to make her feel safe. I saw Artier moving his penis around the little girls behind.  The little girl was surprised and whispered. “Please Daddy, stop that!”
“Shh baby I won’t hurt you. I will give you two dollars if you let me” Artier whispered.
“No daddy, stop please!” Replied the little girl crying.
Artier stopped and said. “ What a I doing? This is my daughter. Please forgive me!”
Artier turned around and fell asleep. The little girl couldn’t sleep that night, she did not tell her mother because no one would believe her.
Now the screen changes and I see Julin and the two younger boys hitting the little girl. The older boys goes in, sees his other and brothers on top of his sister hitting her, takes the younger boy throws him over the bed rail, grabs the little girl and runs outside. Julin wanted to punish the little girl. “Anytime the boys get punished she has to be punished too.” Julin said. “I never wanted to have girls.”
On the next chapter you will read more!
There is a book published titled RUTH MINERVA, it tells all and more!