Coping with stress
Friday I went to Supermarket, I decided to walk with walker. I was riding my power chair and felt like walking to do some exercising. I traded with husband who was using his walker. I walked three long blocks, going to supermarket and then walked three blocks home. I felt a pain on the right side of my chest, it came and went. We arrived home, and pain subsided. That night I felt the pain again and the unrelenting noise in my ears. I drank 2 Bayer aspirins and tried to sleep. I didn’t know whether it was gas, my cholesterol, blood pressure, thyroids, or sugar. I meditated, slept on and off. I woke up the next day with no pains, thank Gods. I had a wonderful day. No pains. Today I woke up no pains and all felt good. Someone pissed me off, I got so angry, that I wanted to scream and throw everything around me and breaking it. I wanted to slam someone bad, and break his/her neck. I started to cry and began to feel out of breath. All of a sudden I couldn’t cry and felt weird, no feelings of wanting to cry. It must have been my guardians, pacifying me. I then decided to go on my face book page, and vent.
My blood pressure went up, and while watching TV again the mild chest pain. At the moment I don’t know what and how I feel, what I am going to do besides write what I have experienced. Pain gone for now. I feel exhausted, weak, like giving up.
OK here is what I live through every day. I have a problems understanding people, yet I hear horrible high noises. Doctors can't find the reason. My right vision is cloudy because of Glaucoma have 20/30 vision, I have pre-Diabetes, lazy Thyroid that made me overweight, Cholesterol, Herniated disc, hence my walking in pain, I can't hardly walk, bad knees due to Auto accident Oct 10, 2017, I just had a Hysterectomy January 11, 2018. Then I have persons who stress me out.
Will I give up? At the moment I want to! I am not a quitter, so NO I won’t give up!
You are not alone people! Maybe you have bigger problems, NEVER GIVE UP! SURVIVE!
